⭐ Why is it so hard to find a job? I have taken the easy yet hard road all of my life when it comes to employment. I spent years educating myself to better myself and I have not been able to find suitable employment in over two years. The pandemic of 2020 kicked my ass. Physically, mentally, and emotionally. 

I have worked some over the years; pet sitting, odd jobs, and I have been lucky to have found a savior in my love, my fiance Thomas Cremeens. He has taken me in under his beautiful strong wings. If it wasn't for him I would be struggling, alone, lonely, and ready to give up. 

I have found a refuge here with him across the lake surrounded by love. 

I still search for work. I am trying to go to school but I owe some on my tuition from my alma mater. I am going to pay them and continue my search for my journey. Maybe Tom and I are supposed to make music together. I would love that. I need income. I was working a remote job and was offered a project, and then they knocked me off the platform. I am appalled and so pissed. I was told I had the job, then it was jerked out from under me. I try to live my life by the live and let live motto. I am so frustrated. I am so talented and smart yet I struggle. I spent time on my education and it seems nothing is turning up even though I try over and fucking over......FUCK. What do I have to do to make it? We are going day by day to survive. We hardly have enough food and money to pay the bills. I am disabled to where I cannot work a physical job. 

I still try though. In this country, it should be easier for me. I am not a quitter but I am very very tired and just over this struggle, yet this struggle is what unites us as humans sometimes. 

If anyone sees this I need a job. I am extremely smart, organized, and well-traveled. I just want a chance. I am submitting this to the Universe give me all you got honey bring it on money, happiness, and I have love but just bring it on.........